Taillights easing farther away,
my eyelids shutter.
Even before you’ve left, I ache for you.
Missing you is pain.
In bed I yearn for your arms to hold me tight once more,
yet the room is dark and cold.
All I have are memories,
the remnant of your kiss on my lips,
your scent surrounding me.
Even though I know you’re driving home,
I worry for you, hoping you’ll get there safe,
just as I always have.
These miles separate us too often…
Digital messages pale to the real thing…just having you beside me is a blessing.
Still, I ache.
I keep myself busy each day, but there there’s that moment,
when a joke comes along, or a sight I want to share…
but you’re not here.
It’s frightening to need someone this way.
Yet I know it’s love,
the true kind.
Yearning for the day we can finally be together without the world getting in the way…
it’s a long wait to say ‘I do’.
But I’ll keep going.
You are my strength,
the only one I want to touch me in a million ways.
You mean so much to me.
Before I say goodnight – knowing that maybe…just maybe I’ll see you in my dreams –
I will state one last thing you’ll never have to doubt.
© Marie Lavender, 2018.